Monday, March 22, 2010

The Loop

I appreciate all the encouraging and supportive comments that came from my previous post about waiting and the uncertainty of being on the register. I am amazed at the wonderful community of the FS. I hope to join your ranks soon. Thank you.

I feel like I am stuck in a loop. I'm not sure how to plan or think "forward." I keep asking my husband, "This FS thing is going to happen, right?" He's getting so he just nods like a bobble-head. I mean I KEEP asking. Like, "Good morning, how'd you sleep? It's going to happen, right?" Or, "Would you like more ravioli? You'll get called, right?" Or, "Wanna turn on the S.U. game? You think you'll get called, but when?" (By the way, go Orange! And hello? Cornell?) Or, "You need to pick up your car from the shop before work. You think it'll happen, right?" I think I might be driving him a little crazy.

My kids had no school on Friday so I took them to a lake nearby for some fun and playing outdoors. We brought along the dog. We had fun. It was sunny and gorgeous. I didn't think about the loop for the day.
Oh, who am I kidding?
I did.
I thought about it...
This is so pretty. It is so close to our house. The kids love it here. Will we get called? When? What if we don't? Will we get called? Will we get called?Will we get called?Will we get called?Will we get called?willwewillwewillwewillwillwill...


hannah said...

I remember that feeling, and every time I come home I think, why would I ever want to leave here? Then I go overseas again, and I remember why I love what I do. Just hang in there!

FS, here we come! said...

For those of you under 25, who have no idea what that drawing is, there was this thing called a cassette tape...and there was actual tape and you could pull it out. And it could be cut and taped back together, to make...gasp...a loop. Aw, read it here, young'uns:

A Daring Adventure said...

Yes, we were ALL there, waiting for the call.

It's so hard!

German. Lots of German...

A Daring Adventure said...

Oh, and by the way, LOVE the new blog design!

Very light and vibrant. Sleek and classy. Love it!

Shannon said...

Makes me think of a ketchup commercial from when I was a kid. "Anticipa-a-a-tion it's make you wait." We have all been there and the wait is just horrible. Wish i could wave a magic wand and make it better.

This is probably not the time to mention that this is just the start of the waiting, huh? Waiting for the bid list, waiting to find where you are going next, waiting to leave post because you are excited for the next big adventure. Waiting for the promotions list. Yea I didn't think so.

LeesOnTheGo said...

It will come. Deep breath. It will come. Have fun. It will come.

Even this~agony of the waiting~ is part of the crazy journey. You know this is a speed bump (a BIG one) and in a very short time you'll be telling others the same thing..."It took FOREVER to get that call. But don't worry, it'll come...".

Do you have any idea how many of us are reading your blog multiple times a day to see if The Call came in? We are ALL waiting with you.


Jodi H said...

Hi there,

Your post got me thinking a lot about where we were two years ago, last year and now here at our first post. Hope you don't mind, but I linked your post in my blog post today

Hang in there - we're all pulling for you! Lots of meditation was my saving grace - and a habit I'm glad a picked up because, seriously, the craziness never really ends : ).

Best wishes,

Jodi H.

Bfiles said...

I am really enjoying your blog! Forgive me if this info is posted elsewhere, but what was your husband's score and cone? I think POL, right? When was he added to the register?
I got a 5.4 in CON, supposedly one of the less competitive tracks less than a year ago (not that that made a difference in my choice), and the euphoria was very short lived as I learned that a 5.4 didn't guarantee anything. yes, better than a 5.3, but still.

Anyway I totally hear you. I'm not on the register yet but I can relate.

Still, I hear the waiting game is an FS constant, so I hope to become better at it. Especially the 'being happy where you are' thing bec I can totally see myself counting down the days from one post to the next. Good luck! Bridget